All I Ever Wanted

And she said why don’t you love me

Why can’t you see me cry

When all I ever wanted

Was to with you make a life

Now I’m sitting in the darkness

Please don’t say goodbye

You’re all I ever wanted

In this life

And there was a moment

When I thought we had

A chance in this world

To turn good from the bad

As we slept in the night

Your skin against mine

Everything seemed so perfect

At the time

And she said how can you do this

How can you close your eyes

When all I ever wanted

Was for you to at least try

Now I’m sitting in the darkness

Please don’t say goodbye

You’re all I ever wanted

In this life

But you never really wanted me

You never really tried to see

You never even stopped to think

Of what we both could be

Now I’m sitting in the darkness

I’m all alone and crying

Tears that fill my eyes

As you’re telling me goodbye

You’re all I ever wanted

You’re all I ever wanted

In this life.

LB

Hardly Breathe

I smell of blood and gasoline

Waking from this awful scene

Alone and in a hazy dream

Where I can hardly breathe

If speed was what you wanted

Then speed was what you got

I couldn’t turn the corner

I couldn’t make it stop

Careening off the mountain

Off of highway forty-one

The lights are growing dim

Now there’s nothing but what’s done

My heart it stops, but then it beats

A faintly whirring sounds repeats

You’re drifting out of sight it seems

Now I can hardly breathe

I think that I can see your face

Mangled now in glass and sand

I try to speak your name aloud

As I slowly reach to touch your hand

But you’re too far away from me

Realizing now my greatest fear

That one day I would lose you when

In fact, you were never ever here

It doesn’t look too good for me

Blood stains my eyes, too hard to see

Too far gone for help to scream

Now I can hardly breathe

Now there’s gravel in my veins

And I’ll never be the same

I’ve only myself to blame

No longer left to breathe.

LB

Three Years

While I sit here and I ponder

All my thoughts of you tonight

Many things I think about and wonder

So many thoughts of you run through my mind

I want to tell you about these feelings

But the deepest parts of me inside are scared

I want to feel my entire heart releasing

And give to you all the things I want to share

If you knew all there was to know about me

Do you think that you would want to stick around

Would you even be attracted to me

Or do you think you’d find your feet hitting the ground

I want you to know exactly how I feel about you

How just the thought of you can brighten up my day

I could lose myself forever falling through the softness

Of your eyes, it’s true

And with just one kiss from your gentle lips

Steals every word that I could ever say

I want to say this and so much more

But I’m afraid of what you’d say

I want to pour my entire heart and

Everything into what we have

The last thing that I want is to push

And end up pushing you away

Could you even remotely possibly feel the same

And see what we can give

All these things and so much more

Flow constant through my mind

I guess for now I’ll leave my thoughts

Unfinished and wonder what it is you’d say

I’ll wonder what could be

If you were here with me tonight

For now I guess I’ll have to sit

And wait to find another day.

LB

Around the Corner

I thought I saw you walking

Around the corner yesterday

I turned around to talk to you

Not sure of what I’d say

But you were gone

Or were you ever there

Now I’ve been trying to get through to you

And in failing to find my way through

I find myself falling alone

Alone with a last thought of you

If you could pull that rope just a little higher

Make the noose around my neck a little tighter

Then maybe I’ll forget you tonight

Or in a week or two from now

And now you’re gone

Or were you ever there.

LB

What it Seemed

I’m not sure where to start

Maybe where I left my broken dying heart

A chance to live a life not torn apart

Was all I ever wanted for my part

Maybe life is never what it seemed

Maybe life was never just a dream

I’m not sure where to begin

Searching for a place where my heart can mend

A place where I’m forgiven from this sin

Or will I bleed forever in the end

Maybe life is never what it seemed

Maybe life was never just a dream

I’m not sure where to start

But I’ll find my way

I’m not sure where to begin

But I won’t look back on yesterday.

Yesterday

I’ve forgotten all my yesterdays

Disappeared and gone from view

Many thoughts I’ve locked inside my mind

In a place I can’t get to

A place so deep and very dark

I’m afraid to look inside

For fear of what I might let out

Of what could see the light

I used to live inside this place

I’ve barely just escaped

I forced myself to not look back

And chose to make my fate

If I were you I wouldn’t go

I wouldn’t dare look in

There are things no one should ever know

There are places I have been

There are things I’ve done and things I’ve said

There are things I’ll never be

There are places I will never go

But most importantly

Is that you’re locked away in there

You’re locked away for good

The key you see was thrown away

I’m the only one who could

You’re locked in there with memories

And thoughts I haven’t said

I’ve torn the pages from the book

The book that can’t be read

The doors are closed no looking back

Only one thing left to say

I’ll never visit there again

I’ve forgotten all my yesterdays.

LB

 

Headstone

Wander with me now

Through this field of grass and stone

A sense you get that truly

We never walk alone

I cannot quite remember

Exactly where you lie

A place I haven’t been to

Since you said your last goodbye

It’s hard for me to realize

You left ten years ago

Would you even recognize me

To be honest I don’t know

Would you be proud of me

The things that I have done

The choices I have made

And the places I have gone

I hope that you look down on me

From heaven time to time

Know that you’re remembered

Always in my mind.

LB

Too Dark Now

I’m standing in the corner

And it’s too dark now to read

Can you see me in the shadows

Can you tell me what you need

Please heighten my awareness

How you struck out from the scene

Your ever painful presence

Is slowly killing me

So kiss me on the lips

And bring me back again

Some day you will find me

On the pages in the end.

LB

Keys to the Kingdom

The keys to the kingdom

Got locked in the car

You ran like the devil

But didn’t get far

A mighty east wind

Hit you in the jaw

It came out of nowhere

A sinister scar

You scream from on high

As I plunge down below

A cascading rage

From a long time ago

Your biggest mistake

Was the life that you led

The heart on your sleeve

That consistently bled.

LB

The Cupboard Bare

Did you ever stop to think

While drowning in the drink

That you would lose your way

While you’re lost among the fields

Surrounded by the steel

That darkened up your day

And as you scream and shout

While looking for a way out

No one hears you say

I knew I’d lose control

Just long enough to go

To places I would feign

Faking ways to get around

Echoes in a whisper sound

Don’t think that you can see

Stand beneath the clouds that rend

Open up and rain again

Shake the leaves right off the tree

The cover that you thought was there

Has gone and left the cupboard bare

There’s nothing left for me

So now that I have disappeared

Goodbye, you will not find me here

I’m gone and now I’m free.

LB